I am constantly facing my biggest fear and it is a fear that many creative people face. A good example of this is my youtube channel. I started my youtube channel back in 2012 and I was making little fan made music videos for One Direction song… trust me I know how lame that sounds. However, they became really successful and to this day they are still killing it. After my One Direction obsession ended I started doing Vlogs and those were very fun to do… and then one day I just stopped. My vlogs were not getting the number of views my music videos were and I felt that no matter what I did I would never reach that success again. So I stopped.
It’s not that I wanted to stop, I just felt that I could not come up with another good idea that would be able to compete with my successful videos…. so I just stopped making them. It was so painful. I would try to come up with an idea and end up talking myself out of it. Since then my youtube channel has become self-sustaining and it has reached over 1,000,000 views.
I have come to realize that was not a one-time occurrence. I just closed down my Etsy shop. The first year my Esty shop was opened it was incredible I had several orders pouring in and eventually those started to dwindle down and I knew I had to start creating new things… but I couldn’t. Everything I made I felt that it wasn’t good enough to compete with my other stuff.
I need to learn how to just create for fun and not worry about constantly outdoing myself. I need to not worry about what people are going to think and do this for myself, because making youtube videos made me happy and selling my creations on Etsy made me happy. Now I can’t do either of them because I am standing in my own way.